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| Hey! So i just had my 3rd operation in a year and i'm trying to get back to normal eating habbits!! With parents running round after you and feeding you, it's hard to keep the weight under control. I lost 13lbs from stress and sickness after the op this time and i've only put 4lbs of that back on through being force fed by the family!
What a nightmare! In 2 weeks i get to go back to the gym so am really looking forward to burning off some of the flab that was forced onto me!!
There's nothing worse than watching the pounds pile on and not being able to move to burn anything off!
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| Finally i'm back in control of my diet and with another operation coming up soon, i'm bound to get the weight i've put on back off again! I always manage to lose at least a stone after operations! I have a goal of 12lbs in 3 weeks before the op though. Think i can easily do it after the past month i've had!
Parents don't give up when they know something is wrong! Nightmare! Taking Berocca again and that helps me get all the vitamins i need everyday (plus more) and means i have some energy when i'm hardly eating! Vitamin suppliment for breakfast, cucumber and iceburg lettuce for lunch then soup for tea... as much green tea or water as i like inbetween and then 2 hours workout on a night before bath and bed... worked for me before so i'm hoping it's going to help me out again this time!
Anyone got any tips to help the weight drop off as quickly as possible? I'm huge right now... 154lbs!! HELP!!!
Need to do something about my size NOW... it's painful to be this big! x | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Ok, so i've been away from here for a while. In fact, i've been in hospital for a while which was shitty but on the plus side i got so sick i lost 12lbs in 10 days! Got to have another operation in June if all goes well at my check up tomorrow... if it doesn't go well then i may be in by the end of this week for it.
Life is so harsh! All i want is to be a little happy with myself for once... but manage to lose weight and then something happenes with my health and i end up getting ill and then when i'm recovering my 'rents try and force me to eat. It's such a bad cycle!
Hope everyone is still strong and getting to where they want to be. Feels great to be able to write on here again and read stuff from people who understand!
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| Ok... so i'm home from work 'ill'!! I need to lose a lot this week. I only lost 1lb last week and it's depressed me! I can get away with eating nothing when i'm sick so hopefully 4 days of nothing ....friday 1 meal then weekends are good because the bf hardly makes me eat. I'm off work next week on holiday so i'll get away with a lot then too. I'm going to stay with the bf for a week and he'll be in uni everyday so i can work out as much as i like all day that week = )
Once my dad has gone to work today (2pm) i have 2 hours before my sis comes in so i can work out for 2 hours and i'm in on my own tonight for a few hours so ican work out again then! I will lose 6lb this week!!! I HAVE to!!! I will be so depressed if i don't!!!
Stay strong ladies and i hope your plans are going a lot better than mine!!! x | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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| So a guy i work with talks to me on facebook sometimes... just he called me an elephant. I'm sure he doesn't mean it in an awful way but he really doesn't realise what his words can do to me!! As if i'm not already unhappy enough with myself and trying so hard to change it!! It makes me so unhappy. The bf is mad with him.
I wrote back on his wall saying how dare he call me an elephane (i know... it sounds stupid) and his reply way "well if the hat fits..." What a complete idiot! I'm so mad right now and i'm sure not eating after that. I'll drive home if i have to ... the bf will not get me to eat anything tonight! Absolute bender that my colleague is!!! I can't believe anyone could be that evil!
Stay strong! x | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Ok, so the bf just found out how much working out i've done today and is now trying me make me eat something!!! It's almost 9pm and i don't want to eat. I've gone all day without anything and burnt off 2500 calories = | i thought that was fab. I'm totally buggered now like and my legs feel like they'l drop off!
Any advice on how i can get out of eating and just sleep? xxx | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Oh this week has been so bad!!! My mum has clamped down so hard saying i'm becoming obsessed with exercise & losing weight! Shes restricted me to half an hour a day onthe crosstrainer and half an hour walks with the dog!! WHAT A GAY!!!! And shes watching me eat and making sure im keeping it down!!! It's the weekend now and yesterday i ate nothing and i intend to eat nothing today & tomorrow too!!! = ) hopefully that will get me back on track and i just need to think of ways to either evoid eating or doing more exercise!!! Thinking about being 'sick' next week!!! Then i can work out all day!!! Hmmm...
Hope you ladies are staying strong!! xxx | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Ok so today is going to be perfect... after yesterday's utter failure!!! Nothing apart from green tea & water will pass my lips! And i will work my ass off exercising later!!! I have some major catching up to do! Wish me luck... i'm just heading off to work!! = ( Would be so much easier if i could stay at home for a few days sick! = ( then i could work out all day and sleep!!
Take care ladies.xxxxx | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| In the process of creating a lovely little "thinspo" section at the back of my food diary that i carry around with me all day. Any ideas about what i should include?!
After my binge earlier i walked for an hour and then burned 1400 calories on the cross-trainer followed by half an hour of sit ups and arm toning. Feel a lot better now although i don't want to do that again!! That's why i'm creating some inspiration to carry around with me to look at everytime i get a flash of weakness!!!!
Stay strong!! xxxx | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Hey ladies... anyone ever tried syrup of Ipecac?? could someone let me know what it's like?! If it works? xxxx | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I think the fact i lost weight last week may have lead to the binge i just had. I can't believe i did it... 2 slices of toast, peanuts, a mini sausage roll & biscuit!!! Had nothing else all day. My problem is... i can't purge!! Ever since i was a kid, i've always had a phobia of being sick!!! It's got better as ive got older but i can rarely make myself sick!!! I can do it if i dont think about it and just do it instinctively but can't if i think about it.
Anyone know any meds that could make me sick? Does Ipecac work? Any advice ladies? Because i really want something that will make me throw up!! HELP!! xxxxx | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| Ok so i did intend to do my weigh in in the morning but i had a quick peek tonight and i've lost 6lb this week!!! That gives me the motivation to keep going. I guess everyones first week is always better than the second or first but i'm still really pleased. Plus, i'm a lot bigger than most of you (146lb now = ) yey!!) so it'll drop off me a little easier to start with.
It can be done ladies so stay strong!! xxxxxxxxx | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Does anyone else get grumpy and depressed when they don't eat?! I've just been crying again!!!! It drives me crazy!!! I don't feel hungry at all but i know my body is yelling at me for food!!! I think i should tone down my working out a little. Body can't cope with no food and lots of exercise! xxxxx | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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After my 2 meals yesterday (stir fry & salad) i'm fasting today. Although i've kinda gone against one of my rules and i've had a glass of coke!! Oops?! Water & green tea for the rest of the day! Mug of green tea on the hour every hour and a glass of water half an hour after every green tea! I find it makes me need the tloo a lot so getting up and walking to the toilet is a good way of burning a few extra calories = ) maybe not a lot but if i use the bathroom on the top floor then i have to climb 3 flights of stairs = ) good little tip there!
Need few tips on getting out of meal times with the family!! Lately i've been trying to get in from work first and making the tea myself = ) then they all get what i think is ok!! Lots of veg! My issue is once i start eating, i find it really hard to stop. So when i make food i make sure there's not enough for anyone to go back for seconds!! At least i can always do what i want at weekends because i'm not at home! I love being at work too!!! I can fast at work and because they don't see me at lunch time they don't know i haven't eaten! When i refuse snacks they just thinkg i'm "being good" so it's rather easy at work. home is so hard though!! Hmmmm...
How do you ladies get around eating at home!? xxxxx | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| I'm so proud of myself. Went out for a meal with the bf in the end. He ordered a starter but i didn't touch it, main course i ordered a salad... asked for it without the dressing & without cheese or chicken!!! Got lettuce with a few crutons! I ate rather a lot of the lettuce but hey... there's like nothing in it! and drank water. We walked there & back too so that was just over an hour = ) about 300 cals! = ) and i worked off 1000 calories on my cross-trainer before we left. I'm about to do another 30 mins (300 cal) before i go to bed with the bf to watch a film! = )
I am going to reach my gw this time... weigh in on Monday morning so i'm desperate to have done well on my 'first week' back into the weight loss. Hoping for 4/5lbs at least! Fingers crossed!!
Stay strong all and take care! xxxxx | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Just had a good old cry... And i'm not even sure why. I got up this morning and went for a 30 minute wak to the shop to get the bf some eggs to make him scrambled egg on toast for his breakfast. Had a cup of green tea myself.
Then like an hour ago he wanted lunch. He had 4 sandwitches & a bag of crisps. I had a tiny bit of stir fry with bean sprout sauce (total of about 80 cal) but then just started crying after it. I wasn't hungry but i know my body needed food. When i eat it makes me hungry!! I don't get hungry if i don't eat. Weird really. So i'm about to burn 1000 calories on the cross-trainer while the football is on. Plus i have an hour of walking later = )
Think i get so worked up around him because he eats whatever he wants... like the above for lunch and then a full domino 16" pizza for tea and is soooooo skinny!!! He doesn't even work out! Does my head in and always upsets me when i watch him eat. Plus, i want to be thinner than him!! It makes me feel so manly that my bf is thinner than me! I'm just the fat lump on his arm.
I get upset whenever i see anyone eating a lot to be honest. He does try and help by never eating sweets/cake/choc/ice cream in front of me or if i get really hungry, he'll let me make us both stir fry or salmon with veg... and i know he would never try and make me eat what he does but it just upsets me so much that some people can just eat what the hell they want and are not the size of a bus!!!!
I think i feel better after that rant! = ) whenever i struggle i always think of that magic number (gw) in my head and think about how quickly and badly i want to achieve it. It motivates me a lot.
Take care ladies...
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| About to head to bed but thought i'd share a good little tip with you ladies. I have a tiny notebook that i carry round with me. Everytime i consume anything i write it down. It helps me avoid bad things 'cause i don't want to have to go through the guilt of having to write down that i ate something other than what i should have.
It also helps distract me if i feel hungry at all... i can write down that i feel hungry and then when you look back you can see if you have any patterns... like always being hungry at certain times and avoid being anywhere near food at that time? Or know it's coming so you can prepare yourself?! It's working really well for me and has helped me learn a lot about where my strengths & weaknesses are in the day/week/month.
Night girlies... stay strong & take care xxxxxxx | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Fasted all day... only had green tea and although i feel drained, i don't feel hungry at all. The boyfriend just made me go to Tesco with him and he got food. He wanted me to get something but said he wouldn't make me eat at this time of night!! I got a stir fry (90 cal ber tub) so i'll have half of that tomorrow if he makes me... luckily he doesn't push me to eat!
Has booked a table for valentines day in a lovely place but said we don't have to go if i don't feel comfortable with it. They do good salads there with no dressing or cheese or bad stuff ... it's cute of him for checking that out. I think i may agree to it. After he went to the effort of finding that out. A salad won't hurt right? If it's the only thing i have. I haven't had a thing today and i'll fast on Sunday too so i think a stir fry & salad tomorrow would be OK. Especially as he said we would walk to this resturant (60 min round trip)
Take care xxx | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Time for me to sleep... feel happy about today and i love the feeling of going to sleep feeling so empty. In fact, i love feeling empty all the time but especially on a night. It's kinda comforting. Makes me think the days gone well.
Take care guys & stay strong!!
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Hey... Really awake and have far too much time to think about tomorrow's food... if i don't think about it, i don't panic about it! If anyone wants to IM me... address is lost_soul8820@live.co.uk
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